letter to an old 'friend'
Dear Pain,
It’s been a while since we spent so much time together…
I’m sorry to say I almost thought you’d lost my address or something.
I know you may be hurt by this,
but I was getting along just fine without you.
I was discovering a new me…
Or rather a “me” I had suppressed after our long dance together.
You’ve never been one to walk into a life quietly, have you, Pain…?
Nah, you have the MC announce your entry
and then strut your way into the rooms of my heart
like they belong to you.
And I guess maybe they do.
They always say if something belongs to you,
even if you lose it, you’ll get it back.
So I guess you belong to me too, Pain.
I can feel you, Pain.
Everything in me…every part of me…every fiber of my being
responds to your harsh caress,
giving in to the darkness that swirls around,
mists of fire, as your desire for me is made plain, Pain.
We know each other so well, don’t we Pain?
You know exactly when to show up….
Exactly when to blow away the clouds and illusions of joy…
and remind me that “you knew me when…”
I can feel you, Pain.
I can feel your arms wrapped around me,
holding me so tight I can barely breathe
the pressure builds on the inside,
I feel the room start to spin..
and I’m wondering if I should maybe follow you all the way to the darkside
maybe then you’ll loosen your grip, Pain.
You always tell me stories of how I would feel nothing over there…
I would feel you no more, see you no more…you and your pal
Worry…and Sorrow…and
But do I want to feel nothing?
Isn’t it better to feel something…anything…
Even if all I feel is you…Pain?
In the meantime, while I make up my mind,
make yourself at home
you brought your bags with you, I see…
so I know you’re here to stay for a while
Plus I see an excess supply of Viagra
Probably brought that so you can screw with my mind constantly
and not get tired…you’re as old as time…Pain
whether I welcome you or not, you’re about to make my life hell.
Excuse me while I lock the door so we can be alone
As I crawl back into my little shell…
